Latest Entries

Improve Your Mindset

I’ve always wondered why people recommend writing when you don’t feel like it. That’s like saying: “be happy” when you’re sad. Sure, you could sit down and list all the reasons that you should be happy, but that usually isn’t going to change the fact that you’re sad. Sadness is in many cases illogical. We … Continue reading

2000

For a little over five years now I’ve dedicated myself to furthering one idea that I’ve always believed was under appreciated in our society. That idea is that: even the most ordinary lives have extraordinary moments. Within every human life lies a story of interest the only issue is how to tell that story to … Continue reading

Home Improvement

There was Tatanka – a kind, soft-spoken Native American man – and then there was Rehab guy. I called him Rehab guy because he looked like he had just gotten out of rehab. In fact, I’m not entirely convinced that I wasn’t his first assignment upon getting out. His hair always seemed to be bolting … Continue reading

Closing Time

I don’t think I’ll ever forget the day I got out of jail. I barely got any sleep the night before. I just sat in my bunk and imagined what I was going to do with my freedom. While everyone else was sleeping during the night I packed all my stuff out, cleaned out my … Continue reading

Smoke Screens

Smoke billowed from the smokestacks that faced traffic on the side of the jail adjacent to the street. There was a forest behind the parking lot, which seemed like a bad idea for a plethora of reasons not the least of which was the relatively easy cover it would make for an escaping prisoner. I … Continue reading

Fighting With Boredom

Boredom. It’s more than a feeling; it’s a state of mind. Once you get it in your head that you’re bored you’re done for. The worst part of jail is that it’s boring. Boredom was the reason that I was there. Some people think that Depression is something comes out of nowhere and others believe … Continue reading

The Restaurant Charade

There was a gap of about a year between when I was arrested and when I went to court.  It’s amazing how long lawyers can drag out the plea bargaining phase of a trial even if – as was the case with me – the evidence of the defendant’s guilt is overwhelming.  During that time … Continue reading

Trip Aces

There aren’t a lot of things to do in jail. The one thing that everyone got excited to do was watch cops. We didn’t watch it because we loved watching cops put away bad guys. Heck, as far as society was concerned we were the bad guys. Nearly all of us disagreed with the premise … Continue reading

The Clique Mentality

When you first set foot in jail it’s kind of like a hotel experience if the hotel staff were allowed to berate you. You arrive and check in with the officers doing intake and they give you a bunch of shit, basically testing your compliance, and then you wait for the old guy who will … Continue reading

The Bad Stuff

I’ve never apologized for anything I’ve ever written because I say what I mean and I mean what I say. This essay and the following series of essays that I’ll be publishing will be as close as I hope to ever come to apologizing. The subject that I am writing about is taboo in our … Continue reading

Reality Bites

In a blog post for my company’s website I wrote about how Kanyeing is destroying American culture.  Kanyeing – for those of you unfamiliar with the term – is the act of putting someone else down so that you feel better about yourself.  This is a real thing.  People actually feel better about themselves for … Continue reading

A Crisis of Being

I was terrible at school growing up both socially and academically. That kind of mix is extremely rare. Usually a student fails at one because he excels at the other. I didn’t want anything to do with school. For the longest time in my life I was simply a contrarian. I would take the opposite … Continue reading

Animal Farm

I’ve always enjoyed stereotypes. I know it’s not the politically correct thing to say, but they tend to be rather funny so long as you’re not in front of the person that is the butt of the joke. I talked with a Southerner over the last couple days and that was quite the eye-opening experience … Continue reading

Small Talk

I’m reading a book right now about how to get better at small talk. I forget the title of the book. I must not be very good at reading closely or maybe I missed something in the instructions. I never do read the instructions they just screw up my thought process. Anyways, as I read … Continue reading

Value Systems

I’ve come to believe that every person has a priority system that governs how they act and interact with the world around them. Sometimes it’s easier to think of these as value systems. What I mean by value systems is not what we morally or ethically condone, but the traits that we prize in ourselves … Continue reading

Gossip Girl

Gossip can be a worthwhile endeavor so long as no one involved is invested in any positive outcomes. I do not normally partake in gossip as I find it to be, more often than not, a rather trivial ordeal. Gossip is a subject that we broach when we have nothing substantive to do with our … Continue reading

Who do you Love?

It’s not an easy thing to talk about. It is probably the most difficult thing to talk about in fact. Writers, artists as well as men and women across all spectrums of people have grappled with how to handle this topic. It is because this is central to our very identity as people that this … Continue reading

Around Midnight

“Sometimes around midnight They’d come knocking at my door I said sometimes around midnight, Hell hounds found what they’re looking for” Sometimes around midnight I feel my heart drop down to the floor. The pitter-patter of emotions beat down my heart. My brain tells my heart to hold fast, that we’ll get through this as … Continue reading

Outcast

I can smell the smoke from the bonfire through the small crease in my window made by my air conditioner. I keep it on year round. It helps the air circulation in my room. The smell permeates my room around six o’clock and I can smell the food that they’re cooking around seven. It smells … Continue reading

Slight Escalations

We all live very busy lives. I have to remind myself of this every once in a while. Not everyone is sitting around thinking of you and for people who really want a relationship this can be tough to accept. Even if you say from the outset that you want a relationship and that this … Continue reading

Production Problems

“Our worst fears lie in anticipation,” Balzac once wrote and that is how I feel heading into pre-production of any project I’m working on. I sit there and think about all the problems. I think that people won’t understand my work or worse: that they didn’t even read it. I think that my work isn’t … Continue reading

J’Accuse

I’ve been accused of a fair amount of things in my life. I’m always interested in these accusations because they are usually far more sophisticated than I could ever hope to be. Take a former boss of mine, who thought that I went home at night and devised plots to ruin her day. I wish … Continue reading

Entertainment Matters

The premise is pretty simple: a man decides to run for mayor as George Washington. He enlists the help of his good friends and fellow founders in an effort to get elected. The man is not the real George Washington, but he is counting on the ignorance of the populace and the apathy of the … Continue reading

Ignoring the Obvious

I don’t always pay attention when I’m supposed to and I hate following the rules.  Rules annoy me and I don’t say that to make myself seem like a badass I say that because rules actually make me angry.  This isn’t to say that I’m advocating for an anarchist world.  Quite the opposite in fact.  … Continue reading

The Lessons of Lost Love

I didn’t used to think about what was gained from failed relationships. I never thought much good came from things that upset you. Then I began to realize that failure in relationships is like any other failure in life; some good must come of it otherwise it wouldn’t have been worth pursuing in the first … Continue reading

The Sun Tzu Math Teacher

The Sun Tzu Math Teacher

I got a new camera rig and one of the drawbacks of buying a new rig is that because they are fully customizable they don’t come with an instruction manual. Thankfully, God invented the internet for such instances. I looked at all the pictures of how other people assembled a similar rig and tried to … Continue reading

Birthday Blues

Birthday Blues

I woke up Monday morning coughing and with a runny nose.  I grabbed some Mucinex and an extra blanket.  I sat in bed for a half hour.  Why am I getting sick a day before my birthday?  I thought.  Getting sick around holidays sucks.  And I thought about that.  Then I thought about how my … Continue reading

The Friendship Gap

The Friendship Gap

I’ve had to face the harsh reality that no one wants to see when they’re thirty. I have zero male friends. The reason most guys my age don’t have male friends is because they’re married and the old ball and chain won’t let them go out for guy’s night (I just love the phrase “old … Continue reading

The Goal of Crowdfunding

The Goal of Crowdfunding

I am, by all accounts, a rather inquisitive fellow. That’s why about halfway into our crowdfunding campaign I asked myself: what are we really trying to achieve here? Not because we were getting bad results or because we didn’t know what we wanted or anything like that. I questioned what the ultimate end goal of … Continue reading

How to Write Without Conflict

How to Write Without Conflict

Most storytellers will tell you that conflict must drive your story.  I disagree.  See what I did there?  I created conflict in the first two sentences.  My disagreement with the underlying notion that conflict must drive story is not what I will write about however.  You will see through my writing and storytelling implicitly that … Continue reading